Tuesday, September 12, 2006
OH MY GOD!!!!! i think none of you would believe it..i mean i'm at a state of shock too i too can't believe what just happened...well i'm think i'm being risky by blogging it down but i need to blurt things out..
oh well..i cried...i just freaking cried...i dunno..it have been yrs since i last cry and this was not not those normal tears flowing down ones...i really cry none stop for a while..and i couldn't stop even if i wanted too...I did not sob nor my eyes are wet...but i cried..oh my god this is the first one since ages ago..as i say i'm still at a state of shock..my eyes are still red and watery as i'm blogging this down..wat came into me man???...i used 3 pulls of tissue..oh my god i'm feel so embarrass...i'm a guy for goodness sake..i think after this or starting from this post i will make my blog private and confidential...ok heres what i happened...i just finish watching this movie called "When theres a will"...it did have a sad ending but the movie was more like boost rather than the cause of me crying...ok heres how the story goes:
there was this old lady who have lost her husband and her only daughter...she lives alone..and her daughter got pregnant at 16 and she threw her out of the hse..she never knew her grandson and neither did he...so one day she got ill and they have to send her to a Nursing home if there is no one to look after her at home..so there this other lady who was a good fwen of this old lady...she did some research and found out that she had a long lost grandson..so he was call in to stay with her..HE lived in Hollywood while she in country side Texas...but her grandson owes this guy money and he wasn't that of a good guy..when he heard that his long lost granmother had a land and a huge hse with alot of money he came down...they lived normally..each day getting closer...than there was this part where a tornado hit the town..he ran to his grandmother..imagine a full grown man..and ask her what to do in a storm..so they took some pillows and blanket and sit in the bath tub..this man and his grandmother.. he was terrified...as he was still a little guy he was left in the storm by his mother, her daughter..and he cried and cried but she nvr came..the mother/daughter..died when tha man was only 5...than while they were hugging each other she sand this beautiful and emotional song to keep his fears away...after that they planned to improve on the hse...she wanted to change the roof, plant new flower and build a garage for 2 cars.. hers and his..she had it all planned out...than she met this another old guy and they fell in love...the guy knows that the grandson wanted her money..so he wanted to marry the old lady and save her, also take care of her...but by that time he had changed..than one day his grandmother still not knowing his grandson was once evil.. stole his convertible car keys...she went picnic with her lover..but forgot to take her medicine along and she cannot hold for long without it...her now good grandson realising it, decided to search for them..he found them in this Church ready to get married..the man knows that the grandson was evil and still thinks so...if they get married than the old guy would havethe old lady's money and all...so the grandson went inside the Church and shouted "wait"..he walked to her and said: " Grandma, how can you not invite me to your wedding, at least let me send you off"...and he gave her the pills...it was such a beatufil moment..than she got a headache...was brought to the hospital and a tumour was detected...her grandson walk to her hospital bedside and ask her to hold his hand...he cried and cried and say pls dont go...and he tell her that she cannot go because they haven't fixed the roof yet, flowers not planted and haven't build the garage...than he ask her wat car she wanted and she said she wanted a "Ford 1952"...than she loosen her grip and died..than they played the song she sang to him in the bathtub while the movie still showing the ppl were at her funeral...where she was sent off in this golden casket which she have always wanted...with the backgrd music that song she sang...
how sad right...while watching that..i suddenly feel the urge to cry..and i couldn't hold back my tears...and i keep sobbing and tears keep flowing..suddenly i feel so sad..never have i feel this sad..the last time i cried also was because i was punish by my dad..now i suddenly feel soo sad...i look in the mirror and cried..thinking wat was wrong with me..why suddenly soo sad..i thought of my parents and all my friends.. my last days in coral..my future..my life...at 12 am in the morning..there i was crying alone at my living room...ppl would have thought i was crazy sia...it could be a sign..issit right for a guy to cry...i dunno why suddenly got so emotional..haha.. but whatever it is..it felt good...now my eyes dont have to hold all those water it have bee collecting all these yrs..hahaha...once in a while need to let it flow..haha strange and shocking...who knows it could be a sign..haha.. Diqkie madly laughed at
- 11:37 PM